HEYA long time no blog

sorry its been awhile since my last update but hey its still running. so anyway my life is really weird right now and its not all that exciting. I'm so happy to be a senior because i can now go off campus at lunch which is awesome and very well worth it because i can buy healthier food than the crap my school sells. but my classes suck majorly its only the second week of school and my history and English classes are already bombed, but I'm doing my best to do well this year. also as soon as i finish my two English classes I'm doing on BYU I will be able start taking drivers ed which will be awesome because i can drive but I'm not all that excited I'm just scared like heck that i will fail. i could pass the written exam with ease but the actual driving i would fail because i sucked when i was doing the "every fifteen minutes" thing that my school does every other year for 20ish people. well I'm updating this blog because my friend reminded me about it and i need to do this cause its fun. in my art class we have to do an identity project which is becoming difficult for me but as I'm getting going a lot of pent up emotion which i don't want to escape is being put into it but also at the same time the me i want to show is coming out but its dragging everything with it. as I'm working on it i start to get extremely depressed and i also become very upset. my life its one gigantic cataclysm. on the out side i am the happiest most sunny dis-positioned positive and excited person ever, but on the inside i am the exact opposite, I'm depressed angry negative dark and glum. when it all is let loose I'm irrational and out of whack i do things i would never do, I'm harmless all the time but i become violent and hateful. my life is misery but i never show expression and i just mask myself with a wall, a wall that could stop even the world from moving it seems like to me. well that's a load off doesn't help but i feel better about stating this. well until then.
tip of the day: speak your mind and your heart, say what matters and don't hold things in. if your upset then tell those who are close to you because that will make you feel better and they will help you overcome your problems. ex. in 8th grade i lost my wallet and i was afraid of my teacher finding out but i wanted my mom to know. someone told my teacher and i was miserable i was crying my heart out and my friends helped me and just let me express my feelings. i did get my wallet back though but the thing is expressing your self helps heal wounds you may not realise you have. so till next time hope you like today's blog bye ;D

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Hello people, my mom decided it would be a good idea to take my computer to use for her stupid mafia wars game so my blog is inacesible. Yes i know im having this blog but i snag my computer for only a moment also my life is getting complicated so meh sorry and until then.

appologies

sorry about my trip not being posted daily as i had hoped. one issue occurred that i did not think to count into effect, and that was ... no wi-fi. so i after day three i had to time nor internet to post up my daily journal but tomorrow, now that im home again, will update daily as if i was still there and post the days adventure. well until then!!! :D

day 3 awful

Yesterday was horrible we took a plane from Copenhagen to Oslo and there was baby screaming right next to us the entire one hour flight and by the end my ears hurt like hell. After we arrived in Oslo we walked around and I was the only one to notice the gay bar right within a ten seconds walk of the hotel. My grandpa keeps loosing everything uhg. My mom is also hyper paranoid. For lunch I had something that tasted like crap. We didn't really do anything after that we just napped and then got dinner. A lot of the guys here though look gay somewhat and many of them are hot. Only problem there are a lot of fat people too. THEY'RE EVERYWHERE!! Well till then.

day 2

Well yesterday was fun. I loved seeingnall the art that is here about copenhagen, sadley the museums are all closed mondays :(. We took a tour learning alot about the history the royals, the elephant statues everywhere (which are for fundraising for asian elephants), the little mermaid and alot more. The breakfast we had was great but we had to wait for the bus for the tour. The tour was about 3 hours long. Afterwards we went to hard rock cafe where i got a fadora yay. We the had luch and a beer house. We napped for a few hours then we went to dinner at a steak house weqre because the legal drinking age is 18 i was able to pass for it and got a coffee with baileys im so happy. Not much else happened but its still fun well till then.
Ps drinking age is amazing.

yay that was fun... sorta. first day on my trip

Yesterday I arrived at copenhagen Denmark at 7 AM after nearly 19 hours of traveling. Thankfully it was cofortable to sleep and eat because i was in first class. My first flight for CA to VA was three hours with a two hour lay over till my next flight which was about ten hours. It then took us awhile to get out of the airport and get our luggage. We then were off to our hotel which i think could be better but we are only here for yesterday and today and then im off the norway. I was stuck in the hotel while my mom and grandpa slept and then we got something to drink at a local cafe and then went to the "little mermaid" statue by the beach and anouther one the was more of a tower with a person im apparently related to. The weather is somewhat on off but is warm. I like it here. After the statues we went to a really nicd sushi place for dinner and the was my day. Today i will be going on a tour so i hope its fun and ill update tomorrow about my excursion.

And my trip now commences

mobile mms post

Ok here they are ill post better pick of them individually later

hhhuuuaaaaaaa!!!!!! XD

Ok, normally when i drew i need a referance or something otherwise alot of them come out looking like they were drwn by a child, this in not counting the souls, they are draw with sheer talent and emotion, but when i drew sebastian i had nothing but blank paper. Now as i draw him more i am in complete aw of what im drawing because it look really good, not as amazingly good as my friend Kat's drawing but good to point of internet worthy. I love him, not like "i love him i want to mary him", but more of a "its so awesome kinda love". So today i decided to draw a couple emotions of him, puppy eyes/saddnes, anger (which i posted last time), contentment/happyness, depressed, and best of all... SHOCK!! And they came out nicely. I had slight issues with the ears but that was about it and he is so awesome im "giddy as a school girl" right now, like a high butt on happyness. So ill poat them sometime latter or add them to this post at a later date with more drawings of him and maybe anouther OC ill come up with. If you have ideas for who he/she should be just comment below. He could be a reletive of Sebas, or his BF/GF, even a random person idk but suggestions are welcome. If u want give it an occupation, education, species, anything and i might take you up on it. I might multiple one if there are enough.

I still have the headache so am gonna ask my mom to take me to the doctor or something cause its worrying me.

Also i went to see Cars2 the other day and it was a hilarious funny action packed movie that i recommend to most anyone. Well thats it until then.

Tip of the day. Dont ever give up on something you believe in or are trying to accoplish, master, or even try. If stick with it a finish it and keep working on it, trust me it will get easier, better, done, or whatever your aiming for it. For me ive had several things that ive given up on, but when i go back to do them again i realise that its not that hard it just takes time. Its like making a cake or cookies, if the first time you make a batch and you burn it or it comes out wrong you try again and make it all over till you get it right so you have that treat, and thats what the end result is for what you ut your mind and effort to, because when you finish it its a treat to finally have it done.

My OC Sebastian :D

I would like to introduce you to my original character, OC, Sebastian! I got bored one night and decided to draw, something, and this was the result. He is still in the fine tuning stages and I still have a few kinks to "draw" around. For example I haven't quite got his ears down, or drawing bodies for that matter. His eyes took me an hour to find a type that matched both my percieved personality of him and his looks. I think he is quite cute and handsome and his eyes perfect him. I hope that all of you will love him as well. Well until then.

update!!

Well considering how lame this summer is turning out until school starts up again I wont be doing these everyday, mostly every-other-day or when exciting things happen and I want to blog about them. Sorry but this summer is a bummer, and extremely unexciting, for me that is. This head ache seriously will not go away I've had it for who knows how long now at least a week I swear, it hurts like crazy. Well I have watched several good movies one of which called Singing in the Rain, I didn't see it all the way through but it was still a very good movie. Well I don't have much else to say except for the fact that I wish my mom would stop asking questions. I mean they aren't many but still. She asked me what gender I would rather date first and a few other similar questions and it bugging me. Well that's it for today and until then.

uhg this sucks

This god damn headache wont go away!!!! my life is now officially boring but playing games is fun. also today i went onto Facebook for the first time this summer and alot of people talked to me and said hi so i feel really happy about that but this headache is becoming quite debilitating. still playing grand quest its too good to stop and its lots of fun
well thats it

blah blah meh GAMES

Nothing much my headache went away for like two hours but this is the third day with it. Bored as hell. Played three awesome games today: S4 League, Grand Chase, and Grand Fantasia. They are all mmorpg's. S4 is a first person shooter/sword fighting game, there's a touchdown game take the ball to the goal and u have teams. Death match has teams and is what the title state. Battle royal every man for himself. And chaser where one person is posesed and has to kill everyone and if you do it in the right order you get extra points then when times up anouther person is the "chaser". Its lots of fun. Grand chase is a two d platformer but you have groups up to 4 and u go to dungeons u can play alone or in groups. There are pvp's, you can go to a town to chat and more lots o fun. Grand fantasia is just your normal 3d mmorpg not much is special except u have spirits which you can have forge armor search for materials and fight with you. All these games are loads of fun if you try them tell me what you think. Well until then.

hhhhhmmmph

I've had a god damn migraine for two days now neither meds nor food/drink have helped and it all started after my mom figured out I was bi. Not say its the cause but its quite suspisious. Today was fairly mundain but my mom got her new laptop today so that's pretty cool not much else though. I'm in so much pain it hurts to think, look at light, so this is a struggle, and moving hurts too. Life is quite miserable so I'm gonna end this here. Until till tomorrow.

Yay it worked. Okay so today, my mom had one of her spiels were she was asking whether or not I'm gay and just pushed and pushed and now she knows >:O not ready. I went grocery shopping today and half the stuff moved so it took forever. God I feel like all my walls have been brought down ):-( I am not at all ready to be out to my mom and now Oma and opa are going to find out and don't know what'll happen. Sorry that's what I call my grandparents its shorter so Yah. Been fairly miserable all day but I have some disorder that forces me to be happy or at least act or look happy. Well ill talk more tomorrow bye.

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blog is postponed till thursday or friday

as the title states i will be postponing this blog. sorry my life is sucking miserably and worst of all this blog which is a lot of fun to do, i dont have time to really work on anymore lately because my mom has been breathing down my neck watching me almost constantly to make sure im working on this so its getting hard. i might have to work on the blog in the middle of the night so i can actually get this blog going again. this is getting miserable for me trying to get these stupid classes done. i really dont see the point in taking classes that have near to no relevance to the job the majority of people want to get. and i have a rhetorical question, when do we use what we learn in history, or math(although one of my favorite subjects), and engilsh or science?might add an update to this message tonight or later tonight that is and if i can ill start my blog again tomorrow but they will be very late at night.
tip for today: Stay true to what you believe in and make your choices carefully. modesty helps you more than you will realize. and friendship will help you more that you imagine, so take all this and "careful what you wish for ;-p"

none again

Been way busy sorry

no post today again im overburden

I have no post today busy with three courses to be finished by the end of summer sorry ill try to get a post in tomorrow ok bye then.

Early and no real post today

Hey everyone I'm not going to do much of a post today because I don't feel like writing one up today, but I also really need to finish my online classes and if I finish them I might be able to convince my mom to let me play some video games because I bought a new game today. Okay well until then.