I HATE ITUNES

I hate iTunes. i just got an iphone and had gotten quite a few apps/games. i plug my iphone into my computer and it removes all my apps from my computer and when i downloaded them all my progress was gone. i hate ituens it does this with my ipod nano also i freaking hate it. i wish they would fix this god damn problem so that i dont have to worry about this anymore i wanna freaking sue them but i cant because i would lose and i would not be able to sue for a personal problem like that. i fucking hate them so much. they have something called icloud which backs up itunes stuff apparently. it backed me up before the sync, but even then backup does cover progress just apps pics contacts and a few other things. itunes and all of apple can go to fucking hell.

this is why life sucks... for me that is

I lost my phone for the second time in two weeks. The first time I lost it was during the art show and sale but my teacher found it and held onto it for me, so I got it back. This time though, I have no recollection of taking out my phone and setting it down today. It just disappeared. Well I hope I find it. If I do I will post again. Well thats all.
Guess I need a leash for my phone, it loves to run away too much. well thats it, until then. :-|

Laugh...cry? its all the same when you see these!

Hey these are some "motivational" pictures i think are quite funny. I hope you laugh you @$$s off. : )

i support none of the opinions these posters provide.

art show and auction

Well I had finished my clipboard for the art auction and it was selling for $20. I was hoping my mom and I wasn't going so she wouldn't buy, (i already have two versions of it) and my luck failed and we went and she bought it ... GOSH DARN IT TO HELL!!! Now I have this clipboard that will never get used, I'm so pissed. well there isn't much else I really want to talk about. My life has been unremarkably unexciting. I made a starburst bracelet which is really cool and I'm thinking of making them and selling them. I visited my grandparent over thanksgiving and did a few things for them and got an unreasonable (as in too much) amount of $200 for it. I had a good thanksgiving but I didn't eat much at all. not much else well until then. : )

feeling...philosophical

Recently i have been coming up with really inspiring quote that are actually pretty legitimate. Also i am making a clipboard and an ornament or two for my schools art show and auction to raise funding for the schools art program. Ive been feeling awesome but school has been taking quite a bit of time out of my life. Today i checked out the sandiego art institute for culunary classes which i think was awesome and i really think i might go there. I also love this christmas season, me always singing christmas music and feeling merry is the most of it. Been really side tracked with alot of random crap though. The only awesome thing is that i havent given a crap about peoples opinions, which has kept me happy. Well thats all really for today might post some art for you all maybe a story or something(clean of coarse need access to this site at school) well until then.

If you look upon life you will realise joy is very simple. It is something that people have to find within themselves. Though you see it around you and you believe thats where you gain it, in truth it comes from yourself and you are the only one who can really control your fate.

sick and my computer hates me

Hey everyone, for the past 5ish days maybe a week ive been si k and it sucks like hell. To top that off my computer is a tard and randomly turns off for no apparent reason at all. Its been really hum drum for the past while and i wish something uber exciting or awesome would happen. Well my schools gsa is going to recieve a financial award at the gsa awards either this week or next, well sometime soon so i cant wait to go i think it will be lots of fun for sure. I cant believe we are getting money though its awesome. Not much else is going on but it is all great and fun and stuff so yuppers. Well until then.

SICK!!

Guess what world, life sucks and i possibly have strep throat and it suck and i feel miserable and the only thing that helps sooth my throat is milk and i dont like milk!!! i dont really know what to do about it, ive been really tired and ive not wanted to really do anything really. even games are boring me. other than being sick life has been pretty good and fun for the most part. in art im now working on anouther project that looks really cool. ...it so cold my fingers are stiff....  life at home is boring though and i had to get a hair cut when my hair was almost long enough to be put in a pony tail. the haircut person took way too much off and now i look like a prep which really sucks and i wish i could make my hair grow back :( well i guess thats all i really have to say today. until then.

Breaking Down The Walls

HEYO!! I am posting this blog because earlier this week on Wednesday I was part of a program called Breaking Down The Walls. It is a program that was held all week were students got to take an entire day off to be apart of it. while there we "break down walls" such as racial, gender, and other differences between people. It is a really great program. we started by getting in a circle, well more like a square, that went around the entire gym. we then had to link arms with either a person on the left or on the right of us to be a partner. the person with the longest hair, me in my case, would go to the inside of the circle. we then introduced ourselves, my partners name was alex. after that we played a game called birdie on the perch. it was alot of fun. the two "lines" would go in opposite directions and then when the leader person who was running the program says "birdie fly home" all those on the inside, designated as the birdie< go running to their partner to sit on their knee. we do three times each time with a new partner, and the third time those on the inside switch so everyone is a "perch" once. After that we did that, we moved around and got new partners and talked with them about our "crazy" families which was really interesting. after talking we switched partners and we then talked about a personal story. In my case i talked about the time i broke my nose and my partner talked about when he got hit in the head with a golf club by his sister when they were five. it was really fun and interesting. we then made new parnters again, and we switch partners alot, and then based off of what we know from just meeting them we had to guess what cereal what car and what vacation place they would go to out of the three provided by "breaking down the walls" organizer. after that we talked with our partners about the "real you", which basically was we talked about who we really were as a person. i met alot of great people during this. then the pairs of poeple would get into groups with anouther pair for a game of tag, there were a few conditions though, first we could not separate from our parteners we had to stay linked in some way, hand or arms, and secondly when tage we had to spin around before we go chasing after our tag pair. me and my partner were untaged the most and it was really fun to just play such a simple game. after this we sat in our groups of four and we all discussed our own personal fears, be it dark, clowns, bugs, failing school, or whatever. after that we thanked our parteners and we all went into the bleachers and we where set into groups of around 10 people. in the groups we palyed a few games asked tons of questions and made sure we were attentive and respectful of each other. before we could get lunch we had to have the people in our groups to use there bodies to form words and/or letters. our group was the third to get release to lunch. while we were eating lunch we continued ask question to each other which was interesting. After we finished all of our group discussions we did something called "cross the line". the purpose of this was the director would ask a question, and if it applied to us we would cross the line. we did have to option of yes, no, or choose not to answer, and if you chose not to answer you would not cross the same a no and if yes you cross. he starts out with very basic, somewhat personal questions like "are you left handed" and other similar questions. as it went on though it would get more personal such as "have you lost a close relative,(brother sister parents)" or "have your been raped" or "are you depressed" and "have you tried to commit suicide". it is a very heart touching/breaking thing to do. after this all the guys got on one team and all the girls went on anouther and we hand to go in pairs through a jumprope with no stops inbetween each pair (one rotation of the rope = one pair goes through) niether team succeeded on any of their trys. we then got into one big group and had to go in 6's and we succeded on the first try, one because there was no competition, and everyone one cheering each other on. afterwards we made stickers with a comment to give to people we met during the program. it is a very good program and i loved that i was a part of it.

art festival!! and GSA topics/ discussions

over the weekend my, and several other, schools had an art show at a well known movie place and it was alot of fun. there was face painting, school choirs sang, school dances preformed, the bands played, and we as the artist of my high school painted a really awesome picture, sadly i did not take a picture. it was loads of fun to do. i had several friends there and it was really fun. not sure what else to say...oh i know, i should talk about ally week and a few other things. ill start with other things (stuff that was discussed during GSA). i have some topics to think about and if you would like talk to me about them in the chats, i don't care what language i got translators. Okay so first thing, why do you think intolerance exists and occurs. i think intolerance occurs because people are afraid of what they don't know about and because of their lack of knowledge so they treat us for what we are and not for who we are. next, what would be an appropriate way to respond to intolerance.  I think the appropriate way to respond to intolerance would be go up to the person being a jack wad and tell them straight up that what they are doing is wrong and that they should stop, because how would they like it (for example) if someone made fun of them because of what they wear or their style of hair or their speech or something. they cant help what they are. sexuality is the same as race, you cant help it. you cant choose to be gay or straight you just are, the same goes for how you cant choose if you are African, Caucasian, Asian, Mexican, Indian, or something else. now if your with friend and they are say it i would do the same thing even if they are joking cause its not funny. last topic how do you think, who would, education about the LGBTQ Community would help stop bullying of the LGBTQ kids and people. Education would definitely help with bullying. education should start around 4th or 5th grade because that's when bullying first arises. if they are told about what being gay is not so much going in depth but at least discussing it then children will be less likely to bully about it. then once they start sex ed since they are being told the "birds and the bees" per-say then they should learn more in depth about LGBTQ's this will greatly decrease bullying because they will see it as being more common and not wrong, now the only issues that will occur will be in private schools and religious schools. well now that we are on the education topic, i live in California and recently a law was passed in July stating that this upcoming January all elementary through high schools are to incorporate gay figures in history. for example Harvey Milk, or The Stonewall Riots, and similar events and characters. Now to ally week. ally week is something that celebrates LGBTQ and their ALLIES!!! what do you know : D so  allies are those who support LGBTQ people. there is something called the Trevor Project and this is a suicide help line for LGBTQ teens its where you can call or use the internet to talk with people who can understand what you are going through and there is always someone there for people to talk to. well thats all i have for today until then : )

And here it is...TAH DAH!!!

sorry the quality is bad because i didnt tell the person holding the drawing i was going to take a picture of it. that lighter color it a neon yellow green color. i hope you all like it :)

my bloggy little world...i got a project done!!

Well, I officially got my second project for art class done so I'll be sure to post that once I get a nice picture of it which will be tomorrow. I did a doodle, and did a drawing doing a free hand sketch of a Soul Eater picture with Soul and Maka, and it came out really nicely in pencil, and in pen I only had red, and blue instead of black, but it still came out cool. I've been doing a few doodles that I seriously need to remember to post. I've said I would post stuff multiple times and I forget, mostly due to talking, playing games, and homework, or my TV shows which I love to watch. I have set a reminder on my phone to remind me to take pics and post them...Finally!! Not much else has been going on in my life, it's been fairly dull and I've been doing the same thing every single day, except weekends. I have a long distance Boyfriend, I guess, and he is really kind, and is an awesome person. The other day I had a really random super depressed moment and debated cutting myself. I didn't go through with it but I was to the point where the blade was at my wrist. I've been having fun at school too. I joined the writing club which is lots of fun and I really like it. Also, my high school's GSA has been booming this year. Normally we had and average of 10-15 people not counting officers and this year we have 30-40 people which is really incredible. Alot of the members are straight too, so that makes it all the better. My creative story which I have been working on has been going really well. I am almost done with Chapter 3 and I've been getting good reviews, and several viewing of my work. I might post it here, but if I do so I will have to change the content warning for my blog, because it is gay erotica in the furry category. I am doing it purely for kicks. If you want to see it now go to http://bruskedragon.sofurry.com and go to the stories tab to read. please comment because I love to hear peoples opinions either good or bad, unless its gay bashing and crap like that. My friend told me instead of doing a daily blog I should just do a weekly one because its easier to manage and I would have more to talk about every posting. Well that's all for this blog, until then. : )
PS This mean my blogs are now weekly. I will tell what day I will post on for a regular basis. I might do out of schedule too. Well until then *hugs* : )

F*#$ stupid people and their over analysis over the bible

Okay, so as my title suggest I'm pissed at Christians right now, or at least the stupid ones. (FYI, I am a Christian). I was looking up, "if being gay is 'unnatural' then why did he create it in humanity" and the first thing that popped up looked like it was supporting gay people. To my surprise I was highly wrong. It was stating that all sinners go to hell, and acts such as homosexuality, bestiality, porn, pedophilia, etc are sins. For most of this article it was taking verses from the "Old Testament" which is before Jesus came to forgive our sins and their is alot less anger and hatred shown by God. It stated that homosexuality is caused by a demon and that close contact such as living with, or having sex with these "demon possessed" people, causes homosexuality. It also states that AIDS is from gay people and it is a punishment given by God to cause death and suffering. By this point I was extremely pissed at the article but continued to read to see if they changed their views by using some of the "New Testament" verses. Little to my surprise, ... it didn't. So F*#$ them. But it did state God love's Gay people which made me happy. 

        So here is my argument against them. Christian to Christian. Gay (bi in my case) to stupid people. Point 1: AIDS did not originate from us Gay people. It came from primates, when a guy got bitten by some type of monkey and it spread all from him. So its not from gay people. Point 2: Being gay isn't cause by having sex with  another person from the same gender. It is a commonly caused when the pregnant women treats the fetus as a disease or intrusion, and defends against it. It does this my either creating too much or little of the proper hormone changing the sexual desire of the child. Also being near or having sex with those of the same gender is usually how we figure out that we have different urges compared to other people. Point 3: If it is unnatural then, why does it occur 'naturally' in so many animal is the wild: dolphins, lions, swans, ducks, pigs, apes, mice, cats, and dogs, just to name a few. Also why did God allow this unnatural occurrence to happen in all these living beings. God ultimately loves all his creations too, because he made us in his image, and that means that, for all we know, he is in some form gay also. 

        Well that was my rant. I would like to tell you all that God loves everyone, no matter your sex, sexuality, race, age, actions, thoughts, or what ever. He made you. You are special, and you are here for a reason and every "defect" or what I would call a blessing, determines how we are going to effect the world. Of course many people don't use that to help others. I think every one of us has a purpose for living, so no matter what crap people give you, you should know that you are loved by friends, and family, and know that through thick and thin there is always a light at the end of the tunnel and in the end it will all work out. Well that's it for today. Until then.

Contentment

OK to tell the truth i had no idea how to title this. i finished watching the anime Soul Eater. it was very c=good and it calmed me down quite a bit so i guess contentment is a good title. you should all watch it because its very interesting and their are quite a few worthy morals to be learned by it. also i'm finally finishing my BYU assignment so its releaving me and my stress is slowly disappearing. i dont really have much to say but i wanted to post this. well thats it im also almost sone with my painting so ill post that sometime in the next week possibly. ok well, until then.

story made/started. lifes getting...interseting

ok well recently i began writing a story and yesterday i finished the first chapter of this hot write up. also ive been getting lost in the anime series "Durarara!!" its kinda summing up emotions in my life and with it inspiration for a few thing. i dont really know what im trying to get at with this post, but i know one thing. im depressed. i kinda want to go to sleep and not wake up, but at the same time surround my self with friends and live off of their happiness. that sound bad but i guess some of the only joy i know of and exprerience. ive been quite irratable and i just want to get away from everything. i want to just explode and murder someone, but thats not in my nature and i know it never will be. im trying to find comfort in a few things and it works but only to the point of helping me put up a barrier for my self and a facade for the world. life weird and annoying. im hoping for something exciting to happen, but i know it will never happen, at least not for a long while. im am deffinately depressed. wow i never really knew how dark my life is till just now, i kinda really dont know what to do and im more or less just ranting right now ill probably be fine tommorrow just kinda in a rutt. oh yah my story is preety interesting ill post a file or something but its a read at own risk. really tired of life and people. well till next time.
tip: no matter how dark something seems or appears, there is always light, physically or emotionaly. if your in the most dire situation the light of hope will be there to guide you and if your in a place with no light it reallys is there cause there is no light without the dark and the brighter the light the deeper the darkness is.

Hello everyone I'm posting this short blog from my phone because of a massive Power outage that hit Mexico, Arizona, new Mexico, and most of southern cali. Bye!

pre art update

hello everyone. on Wednesday ill be starting an "identity project" for art class and i think it will come out epic-ly
so when ever i finish it which i believe wont take too many classes ill will post it up here on my blog. also i plan to post a few new pics of my O.C. and a few "new" old one's which i call my voodoo dolls. there are four of them: Benjamin "Benji", Jack "the ripper", Harold, and Andy. i also have a comic i made with them but there are not very many pages and it died off but i might post more so all thing considered i'm gonna be post a bit over the next few weeks once i get everything together for posting.
Life has been hectic for me for the past few weeks and i'm stressed and been getting only about 5 hours of sleep every night. i have so much on my mind and i'm rushing to finish BYU also to top it all off now i have E2020 which is getting on my nerves. history is fun because of the teacher but the homework sucks. chem is fun and easy. English is boring but a fun and considerate teacher, who is surprisingly very welcoming which makes the class alot more interesting to be in. and art is somewhat boring considering my teacher talks for half the class so i can barely get anything done. bored and not much to do on weekends. well until then.

HEYA long time no blog

sorry its been awhile since my last update but hey its still running. so anyway my life is really weird right now and its not all that exciting. I'm so happy to be a senior because i can now go off campus at lunch which is awesome and very well worth it because i can buy healthier food than the crap my school sells. but my classes suck majorly its only the second week of school and my history and English classes are already bombed, but I'm doing my best to do well this year. also as soon as i finish my two English classes I'm doing on BYU I will be able start taking drivers ed which will be awesome because i can drive but I'm not all that excited I'm just scared like heck that i will fail. i could pass the written exam with ease but the actual driving i would fail because i sucked when i was doing the "every fifteen minutes" thing that my school does every other year for 20ish people. well I'm updating this blog because my friend reminded me about it and i need to do this cause its fun. in my art class we have to do an identity project which is becoming difficult for me but as I'm getting going a lot of pent up emotion which i don't want to escape is being put into it but also at the same time the me i want to show is coming out but its dragging everything with it. as I'm working on it i start to get extremely depressed and i also become very upset. my life its one gigantic cataclysm. on the out side i am the happiest most sunny dis-positioned positive and excited person ever, but on the inside i am the exact opposite, I'm depressed angry negative dark and glum. when it all is let loose I'm irrational and out of whack i do things i would never do, I'm harmless all the time but i become violent and hateful. my life is misery but i never show expression and i just mask myself with a wall, a wall that could stop even the world from moving it seems like to me. well that's a load off doesn't help but i feel better about stating this. well until then.
tip of the day: speak your mind and your heart, say what matters and don't hold things in. if your upset then tell those who are close to you because that will make you feel better and they will help you overcome your problems. ex. in 8th grade i lost my wallet and i was afraid of my teacher finding out but i wanted my mom to know. someone told my teacher and i was miserable i was crying my heart out and my friends helped me and just let me express my feelings. i did get my wallet back though but the thing is expressing your self helps heal wounds you may not realise you have. so till next time hope you like today's blog bye ;D

>:/

Hello people, my mom decided it would be a good idea to take my computer to use for her stupid mafia wars game so my blog is inacesible. Yes i know im having this blog but i snag my computer for only a moment also my life is getting complicated so meh sorry and until then.

appologies

sorry about my trip not being posted daily as i had hoped. one issue occurred that i did not think to count into effect, and that was ... no wi-fi. so i after day three i had to time nor internet to post up my daily journal but tomorrow, now that im home again, will update daily as if i was still there and post the days adventure. well until then!!! :D

day 3 awful

Yesterday was horrible we took a plane from Copenhagen to Oslo and there was baby screaming right next to us the entire one hour flight and by the end my ears hurt like hell. After we arrived in Oslo we walked around and I was the only one to notice the gay bar right within a ten seconds walk of the hotel. My grandpa keeps loosing everything uhg. My mom is also hyper paranoid. For lunch I had something that tasted like crap. We didn't really do anything after that we just napped and then got dinner. A lot of the guys here though look gay somewhat and many of them are hot. Only problem there are a lot of fat people too. THEY'RE EVERYWHERE!! Well till then.