Everything

Everything makes me think of the relationship I was in and I'm constantly fighting back the tears. I feel empty like my heart was torn apart. I cant even listen to music anymore, all the music I listen to and like were in a way love songs with either mentionings of relationships and love, or break ups and such. I always loved that music it always made me happy, and most of my music is upbeat. Now listening to it to try and cheer up only makes it worse and the only thing I can do is think about it and feel miserable. I cant escape the thoughts and I'm stuck unable to get my mind off it no matter what I do and I miserable. I wish my emotions would just leave me so I no longer have to feel anything. I rarely trust people and there are only a few that I trust. I don't trust my family, and even now there are only 3-4 people I really trust. I trusted him. I felt I could trust him and I still do sorta, but now that trust is almost gone, I have no one to talk to because even those I trust I cant go to because my trust isn't complete with those few people. I only have one person I can trust and go to and I can't even get a hold of them. My life is miserable and hell on the inside right now. Hope the pain goes away soon :'( well thats all for today, Until then...