ok well recently i began writing a story and yesterday i finished the first chapter of this hot write up. also ive been getting lost in the anime series "Durarara!!" its kinda summing up emotions in my life and with it inspiration for a few thing. i dont really know what im trying to get at with this post, but i know one thing. im depressed. i kinda want to go to sleep and not wake up, but at the same time surround my self with friends and live off of their happiness. that sound bad but i guess some of the only joy i know of and exprerience. ive been quite irratable and i just want to get away from everything. i want to just explode and murder someone, but thats not in my nature and i know it never will be. im trying to find comfort in a few things and it works but only to the point of helping me put up a barrier for my self and a facade for the world. life weird and annoying. im hoping for something exciting to happen, but i know it will never happen, at least not for a long while. im am deffinately depressed. wow i never really knew how dark my life is till just now, i kinda really dont know what to do and im more or less just ranting right now ill probably be fine tommorrow just kinda in a rutt. oh yah my story is preety interesting ill post a file or something but its a read at own risk. really tired of life and people. well till next time.
tip: no matter how dark something seems or appears, there is always light, physically or emotionaly. if your in the most dire situation the light of hope will be there to guide you and if your in a place with no light it reallys is there cause there is no light without the dark and the brighter the light the deeper the darkness is.
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