Today was a spectacularly boring day, and this blog is never no matter how much I flourish it up be as good as any of the other blogs I’ve done. I really wish I had some other things to do during my day, it just sucks, I in general, unlike everyone else, hate my summers. I never have anything to do and when I do it only lasts a short while if it’s fun, or its one of the most boring things imaginable. Sometimes I just want to break down and cry. My mom got angry at me and overly pissed because of the fact I could not hear ask for toilet paper. My summers are normally spent making up classes, and I just now realized that I’m banging down on my keys in frustration. Half the time any more I just want to strangle my mom or stab her with a knife or do something like that. I live with my mom because my parents divorced which has made my life as it goes on more and more miserable because my family is permanently incomplete. Right now I’m using this blog as an emotional outlet. I seriously hat my mom but I could never tell her that. I’ll probably get over this moment three or four hours from now, but I still really hate her guts. She is so one minded and had been depressed for the majority of my life and recently has become depressed again and way too emotional. She spends her days just playing Mafia Wars and chatting with random people she’s never even met in real life over Skype. I really want to cry right now but with my mom around I don’t want her to see me because then she’ll ask why am I crying and then check my computer and see this blog and my life just sucks, I know I have awesome friends and I always look upon the advise I’ve ever given and it helps me a lot but after about the hundredth time of using that advise it stops working for me and then I have to make up some other form of the same type of advise to help me get along. I’ve contemplate suicide hundreds of times, not just because of family but because I was always the odd one out at my old school. I’ve never had the gut to ever even try to go through with a suicide because I just can’t imagine death. I’m watching “Mr. Magorium’s Wonder Emporium” and it’s helping me cheer up. I still wish I had something to do during the day besides writing up this blog witch I find quite helpful for myself and doing stupid online make-up courses. Well this day is highly boring and I wish I could have more go on. Ugh I’m crying now I really wish I could just get out of the house so I could hang out with someone. L Depressed. I swear doing this blog is probably the most writing I’ve ever done for anything because I hate writing but for some reason this is enjoyable. Also I have a tendency to forget about something I was working on and never finish or if I start just give up, and this blog is just the opposite, I’ve never forgotten to post it up and I finish my blog and everything, its kinda nice. Ugh well that’s it for today.
tip of the day, from a friend, always call a person out for bullying someone, for any reason for example, sexuality, personality, who they are, whatever reason, call them out and support the bullied person.
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